At first, I found the overload of information comforting. The unparalleled level of tracking every case made it feel like getting down to COVID-zero was a possibility. But as the cases continued to spin out of control, the daily 11 am ritual became a source of anxiety. The list of hotspots just grew longer by the day. I feared receiving the dreaded text that I had been at a hotspot, I feared having to self-isolate and most of all, feared to unknowingly spread it to someone at risk.
Within days of moving to Amsterdam, I felt my fear of COVID dissipate entirely. I realized that my COVID-related anxiety had nothing to do with the actual prevalence of the disease. At the time, the chances of getting COVID were far higher in Europe than they were in Australia. However, the sense of personal responsibility was rather linked to the amount of COVID information I had constantly thrown at me.
In Amsterdam, it was easy to pretend that COVID didn’t really exist. The reporting on COVID-19 was virtually nonexistent. We didn’t have to check in at cafes or bars. No one contacted you whenever there was a case in your local area. I just saw COVID as something that might impact me, but not necessarily something I could ‘game’ by dodging or pre-empting. (I do recognize I am in an incredibly privileged position to be able to say that.)
It made me curious to know if other Australians, who had moved during the lockdown, experienced the same quick decline in anxiety. Was this attitude change towards COVID a common thing for people in a situation similar to mine? Read PART 2, to find out what my fellow Australians think!